quarter life crisis...

this afternoon, a friend called to wish me a happy birthday and asked if i was experiencing a quarter life crisis. i told her she was about a month late. we laughed at how true it was and how silly i had been just a few weeks ago. it's funny to think how i've been reacting to the looming unknown. i mean, it's not that big of a deal. i just have to wait until april before they (a man whom i've only spoken to for 45 minutes total) will be telling me where and how i will be serving for the next year of my life. if anything, i am learning how stinkin' control hungry i am. and i am seeing my own ridiculousness. but i think i'm taking good steps in the unknown direction. i had the opportunity to be a little more proactive in my future, but i turned it down. call me crazy, but i really want to see where this whole 'call process' will put me. i want to trust that God has something in store for me that doesn't require my meddling. 

so here's to my next quarter... maybe by then i'll have some direction