letting go.

how do i do that?

you know, i realize that i always speak too quickly. not necessarily to people, but i seem to jump to conclusions and end up disappointing myself. the question tonight is how do i let go? how do you let go of something that you thought you have already let go of?

in the balance of forgiveness, mercy, grace and love... where does letting go lie? how do you maintain relationships and let go? how do you hold on to things that may not be healthy for you?

gosh, i thought with growing up, life would be simpler. or maybe less drama. not that i want to call this drama. i just thought we'd gotten past a lot of this. but we haven't and that's okay. this is very much a part of who we are... of who i am.

my past has shaped me. i am who i am because of my experiences. and i wouldn't change that for the world. and i do love you... you are silly to think that would ever change.

i wouldn't, for a minute, ever claim to understand God's plan in all this. i know its His, but that's all. so yeah, letting go...

i'm open to any thoughts or suggestions.